IT'S TIME TO QUIT

As I sit here after having thought about this moment for so many years. Sure I've faced it so many times now but inside not truly seriously, although this time I feel so enthusiastic about it, it's a very pure inspirational source guiding me. Quitting smoking once and for all. I do admit, the concept is very frightening, for the nicotine demons are relentless and even after 40 years and more, they are still there in the back of the mind, from most reports I've encountered. I have my supportive lover who will be with me and I love him so much for that.

In the past whenever I've tried to quit I've been absolutely bombarded with negativity in the form of comments and I thought humans were supposed to stick together. It is rare that I found such a loving and genuine beauty in my man.

Note first: At 10 years old I said I would 'never ever smoke'!!!

My smoking history:
Started 11 years old, very rarely then
Age 12: I bought my first pack, smoked once a week.
Age 13: I smoked one cigarette daily.
Age 14: I smoked a packet a week. Discovered marijuana and alcohol, always spewed tho!
Age15: 2 packets a week, could still go with out smokes though, due to no money.
Age 16: 100 smokes a week.
Age 27: Hasn't changed much since 16, that is when I discovered I was truly addicted.

So it has been a very long time and due to the recent death of my dear 24 year old cousin from smoking related asthma, this is partly in his honor. God bless his cheerful soul.

I shall update very often on my progress, especially the first few 'critical' days and I should note that I'm using 2mg nicotine gum in lowering doses to help with the extreme mood swings I know I will encounter!

Please check back regularly with comments and tips if you've overcome the nicotine curse.