Quit: Day One

Today I'm in a rather bad mood and have the biggest urge to smoke a cigarette; but not for the nicotine, just for the act of smoking a cigarette itself. Due to the nicotine gum I'm chewing, I already have nicotine in my system which is a major help in quitting, as going cold turkey has never been successful for me in the past. Nicotine is so damn hard to quit and it is evil. Having an addictive personality, I've overcome a past benzodiazepine addiction, which was absolutely piss easy compared to nicotine

I'm so glad I have my partner's support in this and so far he is the only one who I've told, besides any anonymous person I don't know who actually reads this! I know he hates me smoking and I feel bad that when I kiss my partner I must taste like an ashtray and reek of smoke...well not anymore!

Until tomorrow,
Tony